I couldn’t think of a better word to describe my feels for 2018 than thriving.
Energy in the universe has been abundant due to the super moon, and it’s left me feeling fulfilled and inspired. This is a recent sentiment though. 2017 left me feeling anything but thriving to be honest.
I was reflecting on this past year with friends, and we all had a hard time thinking of what our favorite parts of 2017 were. Between heartbreak, loss, extreme struggles with mental health, and total disconnect with the self. I had been brought to the lowest of lows, and for lack of a better word, “eh” was the only way to describe this year.
An abundance of negativity had left me struggling, uninspired, and unmotivated. The past few months have been exhausting. Everything seemed to present itself at the most inconvenient of times, feelings that were too hard to once deal with found a way to resurface, decision making was questionable, and my sense of self was totally absent. My hardships have lead me to reevaluate who I am, what I want, and given me a surge of independence, empowerment, and self confidence.
I’m choosing to focus on the good things now. I’m remembering how I was lucky enough to experience falling in love rather than dwell on heartbreak. How I got help when I needed it most, even though reaching out left me completely vulnerable. How someone I love is happy, but letting go and saying goodbye was the most pain I’ve felt in a while. Then there are the realizations I’ve had, although that meant being completely real and facing my truths wether I liked them or not. I’m choosing to rid my life of toxicity and all aspects of negativity. It’s hard to not get caught up in negative self talk, anxieties, fear, jealousy, anger, other people, what we think they are thinking, and all other distractions we let consume us on a daily basis.
When you focus, are kind, honest, deflect the need to please others, communicate, and are completely yourself; magical things happen. Life is all about balance. It doesn’t all come easily or all at once. Embrace the imperfections of the universe and let all the good in with open arms. Love yourself and I truly believe everything will work out as it should. When you trust yourself and your deepest intuitive thoughts…you will be left thriving.
I refuse to let negativity get in the way of my ability to thrive and love myself.
I encourage you to use this energy and new beginning as a fresh start to fuel yourself with positivity. I have such a good feeling about 2018 and I can’t wait to see all the opportunities the universe lays in front of me.
“The deepest level a person as a whole can get in the way of their own existence is by being to aware of themselves.” Alan Watts