Your fear is 100% dependent on you for its survival.
Debating whether one trusts or not is a sign that one does not want to trust at all, and therefore is still incapable of it.
Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.
Surely God would not have created such a being as man, with an ability to grasp the infinite, to exist only for a day! No, no, man was made for immortality.