If your happiness depends on what somebody else does, I guess you do have a problem.
End your sadness. It’s time. You are too determined to call yourself “infixable”. Look around. Everyone is broken.
People wait until they have enough time to do what they dream. It is 99% sure it will still be a dream at the end of the life.
If you are in crisis of who you are and your self-image, then everything is going to be distorted because of one crisis that hasn’t been resolved.
Pastor A.R Bernard