Go where your energy is reciprocated, celebrated and appreciated.
The barrier during self-improvement is not so much that we hate learning, rather we hate being taught. To learn entails that the knowledge was achieved on one's own accord - it feels great - but to be taught often leaves a feeling of inferiority. Thus it takes a bit of determination and a lot of humility in order for one to fully develop.
Being emotionally inept is all fun and games until your boys find love and nobody has time to distract you from your demons anymore.