Love and pride are like oil and water. The two can never mix.
Be proud of yourself for how far you have come and never stop pushing to be the best you can be.
Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.
Surely God would not have created such a being as man, with an ability to grasp the infinite, to exist only for a day! No, no, man was made for immortality.
Maturity is also self-awareness, knowing your own strength, your weaknesses and your limitations.
If you want to make it easy for undeserving people to reap the benefits of your magic, that's your own. Continue living in disappointment.