When you’ve finally accepted your disorder or illness, you often think “what’s next?” for me, that was figuring out how I live with this for the rest of my life while maintaining sanity after acceptance. Along comes the thoughts of dealing with the idea that you’ll be treated differently once you put it out in the world that I have a mental disorder or even who would want to be with someone who suffers from anything other than being perfect? Granted, there are a variety of different diagnosis, I chose the non-medicated route. That is not to take away from being prescribed medication because sometimes medication does help people better manage their illness, but for me I just felt I could handle this without and I am. All in all, you truly cannot overthink things and take them day by day.
After I was diagnosed, once the shock wore off, I asked my doctor “what now? I don’t want to take medicine…” and before I could finish my sentence she told me “we know what your trigger points are, start there and find things outside of them that make you happy like painting, traveling, walking on the beach etc.” I took that to heart. I started to find creative ways to keep my mind from what my diagnosis was. I always enjoyed taking my son on our nightly walks with our dog Charlie but I turned nights into twice a day including frequent trips to the park. His smile lights up my life. Another thing I decided to do was of course, write. Since elementary, Journaling has always been the constant factor in my life so blogging came natural for me. And now, I’ve added reaching out to other people who have a mental illness that feel comfortable sharing their struggles with me. These 3 things have made me the happiest and I have not had an episode because of this.
Don’t get me wrong, all of this took patience and time, A LOT. It is a long process for some, and shorter for others. Do not ever compare your process of acceptance and overcoming with someone else. They are not you, you are not them. It is easier said than done, trust me because this has been said to me but, it truly is the truth and well worth it once you get to where you are comfortable and not dwelling.
This is me. For you, ask yourself why are you afraid of this? What truly can be the worst that can happen to you now? Why let a diagnosis make you place yourself or your life on hold? It’s simply not worth it. Surround yourself with others who struggle, take walks to clear your mind, exercise, eat healthier. Whatever it is find an outlet that works for you and do not compare your struggle and success with others. It will be hard but so very worth it. I’ve found mine, but every day is not perfect and I am still a work in progress. Don’t give in to society’s standards or even the standards of those around you. You are unique in your own right, and for what it’s worth, I accept you.