The words you’re about to read are important to me. Here’s why:
I always told myself I’d never be in an abusive relationship. I always envisioned myself being able to leave. Little did I know I was just young and naive–because it’s not that easy. There are so many unconscious forces at work. And more often than not, I stayed. Especially when I dated a narcissistic–something I previously didn’t know was an actual personality disorder.
In result, I never imagined my dating life would be what it was as I accepted my sexuality and put myself out there almost eight years ago. I was dating one monster in disguise after another. And somehow each time they left my world felt like it was falling apart. Each and every time, it felt like they stole something from me. It was my optimism. Because for years nights were long and heartache was inevitable while living in the rules of someone else’s game.
And that’s what I was doing. I would make excuses for mistreatment. I would placate bad behavior. But I was young then, didn’t know my own self-worth, and was naive to the covert aspects of both narcism and emotional abuse. Since then, I have learned so much.
Having learned so much in the past, I decided to write it all down. Which is why I am happy, nervous, and excited to announce the release of my second book, Unrequited: Things I Learned from Trying to Love the Wrong People.
It is a diary made public–a guidebook in hopes that others may learn from what I have been through. Inside are seven years of terrible experiences that shaped me, changed me, and often made me feel broken. But I am not broken now. This book is me taking back my power–exercising my right for closure after being made to feel I didn’t deserve it. Though a very personal book, the details feel universal.
Unrequited is my heart poured onto paper. It is both raw and real. It is both terrifying and liberating. But more than any of this, it is educational. While writing I learned more about life, about myself, and about love. I realized my patterns and similar patterns of those around me. I realized that I created this book for my own personal sense of closer, but also so that other people may benefit. Because there is no stronger feeling than hope–than realizing you are not alone. And those of us who have experienced the darker side of love are never alone.
This book means the world to me because in a world of people who would try to invalidate me I wrote anyway.
If you are interested, you can purchase my book on amazon by clicking here. It is my hope that you will give it a chance–even if you’ve never been abused and just want to learn more about love itself.